Chap 14

Chapter 14

The door opened slightly, he walk in, and there she is, she take one step back and lower her face, try avoid his eyes. He drop his bag down, close the door using his feet, and take a step toward her. His heart pounding.
She brave her self to look at him, her heart pounding as he closer to her, she feel the fear, but when she saw his eyes, it seam all her fear ease a way. And when his hand cup her face, and his lips start to kiss her, she give up, she not have the courage yet, but she wont reject it any more. She let her heart win over her rational mind, she try to deny, but she can’t lie, she want him, she will made all the excuse to justify all that she do tonight. She will give all her body and soul.
He cup her face and start kissing her, he will show her how desperately he wanting her, he will persuade her, and let her see and feel all his feelings, that he want her to be his.
“I miss you….” He whisper in between his kiss
He take his hand down to her breast, and kiss her more passionately, she gasp, and round her hand on his neck, he lifted her from the floor, and she round her foot on his waist, she cup her face and kiss him back in same passion as his.
“I miss you…” she whisper on his ear in desperate
He carried her to the bedroom without stop kissing her, he lay her on the bed and start took off his t-shirt, then kiss her again, he took off her tanktop, her bra, and see her fully breast, and start kissing it, once again she gasp, feeling the desire in every his passionate touch.
He took off his shoes using his feet, while keep kissing her, he lay on the top of her body, embrace her, then he rolled her over, so now she who’s on the top of his body, she help him open his pants, he full her back to his embrace, when he already unclothe, he kissing her again. Roll over again, and now his turn who took off her sports pants. Her naked body looked so pure. He let his hands discover every inch of her body, and feel her soft velvet skin. He embraced her again, kissing her lips, her neck, and once again her breast, she moan. And that moan fired up his manly side more deep.
He kissed her lips again, he touched her breast again, then lower to her belly, and then to in between her thigh, she moan even harder.
He lay on the top of her body and dismiss the essence of all desire and bring them to absolute joy in the unity of two human flesh in one soul in one reason called ‘love’, he push deep in to her, he push again, more deep, and hard, but also careful. He moves gently, he doesn’t want to hurt her, he want to cherish her.
She feel his body heat on her, and his desire flow all over her body, transfer the pleasure, the joy that she never felt. She held him, her fingers touching his barely back skin, as she feel him more deep in to her, she moan, he moan.
And there they are, fall in to lusty desire. Set each other free from they yearning, and fulfill the willing to be together, in the need to show and prove the love inside they heart, trough they touch, they kiss, trough seductive gentle whisper of ‘I miss you’ and prove how that words can be more powerful than ‘I love you’. And they reach the top of the pleasure together, it released, it fulfilled, it proved. And now they fall in exhaustion, but there was satisfaction on they bright eyes, on they blushing cheek, and thin smile on they face.
Jung Min lay down next to barely Chae Rim body. He reach the comforter and cover their naked body, he full her to his arm, he kiss her forehead.

Jung Min finger touching every inch of her oval face, he touch her nose, then down to her lips, he touch it, then he take a glance of kiss.
“Saranghe” he say gently while look at her in the eyes, finally he say it. And he feel a relieve. But Chae Rim just give a thin smile hear it, then lower her face, she bit her lips.
“What wrong?” Jung Min ask saw Chae Rim reactions
Chae Rim just sigh. She already give him all her body and soul, but again, she feel the fear, so many thing that she have to face. Is she ready to face it? is she brave enough? And him, his an idol, her present maybe can cause him trouble, and his present can give a hard time to her comfortable life, and that remind her to the hard time that Hwang Bo have to face.
“Am I can be as strong as Hwang Bo unnie?” she ask to her self on her mind.
“What are you thinking about?” Jung Min ask with gently look, Chae Rim just smile
“I can understand if there are still so many things bother you, even scare you, I know. But let me tell you, and please trust me. I will protect you, I will not let anyone harm you, I promise” Jung Min try to convince Chae Rim
“Don’t make any promise, it didn’t meant that I don’t trust you, but don’t make any promises, don’t burden your self with a promise” tears start falling from her eyes
“I’ll prove it to you, you’ll see” Jung Min wipe Chae Rim tears, and embrace her, kissing her hair. “You are mine now, I won’t let any one take you from me, I won’t let any one harm you, I’ll take care of you”

Chae Rim staring at sleeping Jung Min, he sleeping like a baby. Her tears falling slowly over her cheek, she feel hurts in side her heart. Cos she love him, and she already give him all, but she still not sure yet if she able to walk side by side with him, face all the hard time who’s that right in front of they eyes, is she will except him and all the consequence that they have to face. Or just keep all the love she had inside her heart, and loose him, that maybe will be a decision that she will regret. And all the desire that she had feel tonight will be the first and the last, that she will keep as beautiful memory for the rest of her life.
“oetteoke?” she whisper in her mind, her tears start to falling down, she take a deep breath, she try not to cry, but she not able to hold her tears,
“Saranghe….” she whispered with tremble voice, she wipe her tears, then get up from the bed, its 5 in the morning, she not able to close her eyes, so many thing in her head. She walk to the bathroom and take a shower.

She sit with folded knee on the sofa, looking out of her window, down to the street, the dawn is breaking, the sun sneaking out trough the dark cloud that fade little by little as along with morning time of early summer. She sigh, then get up from her sit and walk to the kitchen, she look for a glance at her door way, she saw Jung Min bag, she just realize that last night Jung Min drop his bag there. She pick it up, then took it to her bedroom, she saw Jung Min still a sleep half naked under the comforter. She also pick the cloth that scattered on the floor. Once again she stares to that peaceful sleeping face. She sigh.

Chae Rim prepare a breakfast. After she had her breakfast, and prepared Jung Min breakfast, she change to her working cloth, then sit on her working table, and write notes.

At Other Part

Hwang Bo just get up from her sleep when she hear her door bell rang, she wonder who is coming in this early morning. She still feeling sleepy, she get the bed almost at 3 in the morning, that after she have to convince him that he have to back at his own house for his own good, or they will be in trouble if someone saw him out from her place in the morning, and that mean dead sentence for them.
Hwang Bo frown her brow when she saw Chae Rim on the intercom screen. She open the door, and she saw Chae Rim stand, she bite her lips, and her eyes seam ready to cry.
“Chae Rim –ah something happen?” she ask with concern, but Chae Rim didn’t answer, she just rush in and hold her, make her more confused.
“ Na eottokoe hajyo, unnie? What should I do? I fall over him”
Hwang Bo loose her, and look her in the eyes,
“Calm down, we better talk while sitting”
Hwang Bo closed the door, take a glass of water from the kitchen. Then she sit in front of Chae Rim who’s still in tears, she give the water to Chae Rim,
“Now, tell me what happen?” Hwang Bo say softly as a big sister talk to her confused little sister, after Chae Rim take a gulp of the water.
Chae Rim take a deep breath, and wipe her tears
“I give him all unnie, last night I give him all, I’m not deny him, I’m not rejected him, cos I realize it, when I saw him in front of my door, I realize it, that I misses him. I think you, and Hyun Joong was right unnie, that we fall to each other, what we feel are not a dongsaeng and noona, in fact that we never act as one”
Hwang Bo chuckle when she find out what the problem, then she pat Chae Rim hand “You silly girl, don’t forget you 26 for god’s sake, why you crying? Don’t you suppose to be happy? You the one who told me that love is not a sin, and age are just a number, you two just two years parted, look at me and Hyun Joong, we six years parted”
“I know unnie, but there is still so many thing that I’m fear off” Chae Rim sigh
“His not an ordinary man, but an idol, one of Double S, that why I keep denying my felling of him, you know me well unnie. And you may say that I’m selfish, but I love my comfortable life. I don’t know if I’m that strong enough, like you” Chae Rim wipe her tears, then she told Hwang Bo what happen last night.
Hwang Bo smile warmly ”I understand your fear, but didn’t you told me once, that I have to fight for my happiness, to fight for Hyun Joong cos he’s one of my happiness, b’cos I love him and he love me too. Don’t you just tell me that you love him too?”
Chae Rim nod “I do, but I think I need more time to convince my self unnie”
“Give him a chance will you? Give your self a chance. You just made a big step there, when you did it with him. You can not disregard it just like that, cos it will just hurting both of you, so have you told him that you need more time?” Hwang Bo really like when they talk like sisters, and she really do understand what Chae Rim felt, cos she had feel it too when the first time she find out that she fall for real with her make-believe husband Double S leader Kim Hyun Joong, and when Hyun Joong ask her to be his girlfriend. And she thankful cos she make a right decision, that give Hyung Joon a chance to prove him self that he can be the right man for her, and she decide to fight for her happiness. And Chae Rim was one of her friend that support her. When she ask to keep it as a secret, she really prove her self that she is a good secret keeper, and not a story teller, she’s one of ordinary friend that really close to her, well she’s like a little sister to her.
Chae Rim nod, her mind flashback to the note that she write, yea, she not able to say it directly to Jung Min, cos everything will be to too difficult for her, meanwhile she really need more time.
“Now I have to take a shower, and make my self ready for shooting IG, and you, don’t you suppose to be go to work too?” Hwang Bo smile and pat Chae Rim hair.
“I think I will take a day off today, can I stay here unnie?” Chae Rim folded her knee
“Sure, I think it’s our karma to end up with an idol” Hwang Bo say while walking to her bedroom,
Chae Rim snort “I guess so, since we reject them in our life” Hwang Bo laugh hear it. She lay her self on the sofa, after I hard sigh, she close her eyes, and for a moment later she fall a sleep.

At other part

Jung Mi hear the buzz from her cell phone along with the ringtone of his solo song ‘If You Can Not’ he full the comforter, cover him self, and pretend not hear it, but it repeatedly. His hand crawl from under the comforter and grope the bed side drawer looking for his phone, he grab it, and he feel there was a paper tuck on it, he get up while picking up the call, its from his Manager hyung. He try to open his eyes, he rub his eyes with his hand, then he realize that he half naked. He frow his eye brow try to remember what has happen. But his Manager hyung voice delay it.
“Ya! Where are you? Your omma says that you not back home last night?”
“Sorry hyung, last night I pass by at my friend house, and I thing I fall a sleep at her place” He look at to the note and smile, now he really can remember what has happen, and where he is.
“What? You sleep over at a girl place”
“Ani hyung, I meant his place” Jung Min correcting quickly
“You better make your self ready, remember you have to shoot MV, meet me at the office, and hurry!” he took the phone away from his ear when he hear his Manager hyung shout at him again
“Araso hyung” he closed the phone, and read the message again,
*Happy morning, first take a shower, I already prepare clean towel and new toothbrush in the bathroom, sorry I can’t wait till you up, I have to go to work ^ ^*
Jung Min smile ear to ear read that note, he backtrack again his memory to last night. He lay him self again on her side, and he can smell her scent, and he miss her already. He look at the ceiling, then get up and look a round the room, the room so neat, he snort while smiling when he saw the shelf full with manga, well she is look like some one he know. He saw his cloth folded next to his bag on the small table next to make up table.
He want to stay as long as possible, but his Manager hyung shout buzz on his head, force him to get up from the bed and walk to the bathroom.
When he finish his shower, he take clean under wear and t-shirt from his bag, it just his habit always took spear clean under wear and cloth in side his beg where ever he go. He see there another note tucked on his last night t-shirt.
*now, if you finish dressed, I prepared breakfast for you, bon afettiet ^ ^*
He put the dirty t-shirt to his bag and wear his jeans again, have no choice he not bring clean pants.
Then his eyes catch a picture of Chae Rim, with Hwang Bo, Jun Jin, and Erick in silver frame
“She’s mine” Jung Min smirk while looking to Eric on the picture, then he look to the bed that he already tidy up, and take the picture of it. He need to documented all. Last night was the most important moment for him, he finally can proved that his a man, a real man, not to the girl he love, but also to him self, and if he can tell, he also prove it to the whole universe.
“bed of love” he murmur he wont forget the night that he spend there, he will remember it for the rest of his life


He walk out from her room, and walk to the kitchen. He open the food veil, he saw a bowl of rice, a soup, egg roll, and ham. There also another not tucked on the yellow envelope.
*Read this after finish your breakfast, and no sneak peep, araso!*
Jung Min grin, then he eat his breakfast happily.
“What a perfect life” he say to him self

At Other part

“Chae Rim-ah, are you have your breakfast?” Hwang Bo say over her room, but there is no answer, she walk out from her room, and smile when she see Chae Rim sleeping on her sofa. He walk back to her room and back again with a comforter, and covered it to sleeping Chae Rim.
Hwang Bo look at Chae Rim with cares, she really understand with what she feel, and not blame her if she still need time to think, to convince her self. For ordinary girl dating an idol are to hard, to many pressure. Her mind back to the time when Chae Rim date with Eric, that was a short date, and she find out that they were date after it was over.

“So it’s over?” Hwang Bo repeat Chae Rim words
“Yup, to much pressure, unnie, I think I’m just being carried a way by my amazement of Eric oppa” Chae Rim say with thin smile
“I think, it the best decision unnie, just be friend, be like a brother and sister” she say again
“When you end it?” Hwang Bo ask
“Last night” she answer shortly
“You two broke up on valentine night? That hard” Hwang Bo made a face
“Well not really, in fact we doing well, more relax, more fun” Chae Rim smile
“Chincha?”
Chae Rim nod without hesitant
“If that way, good then”
“Yup, I think idol not made for me” Chae Rim roll her eyes
Hwang Bo laugh hear what Chae Rim say that day

And now, its seam destiny take Chae Rim step back to the idol, so hard she try to avoid it. And this time look like she can resist it.
“I think this is our karma, we try to avoid, but look, we end with one of them” Hwang Bo snort

At Other Part

The four other Double S stare to Jung Min when they see him enter the meeting room, with sulking face, they look to each other. They ask to each other using body language. Finally Hyun Joong, as the older, the leader, spoke up.
“Whats wrong with you?” He ask
“Nothing” Jung Min answer flatly
“Then what with that sulking face?” Hyun Joong ask again
“This is my face, I can do what ever I want” Jung Min make cynical fake smile
“Ya, Jung Min-ah what wrong with you?” Kyu Jong ask with glare
“I’m not in the mood to answer any question” Jung Min sit on one of the chair
At that moment they Manager hyung entering the room
“Oke boys, you all here, lets go, we have to go to the studio, the director just call me” they Manager hyung say while clap his hands.

When they reach the studio for shoot they MV, they head to the dressing room and change they out fit with the costume that already prepared by they stylish, and then they make up artist and hair stylish do they job.

Hyun Joong drag Jung Min to the mans room, after he and the rest of Double S feel annoyed with his unfocus behavior, that make them to repeat the dance move till they exhausted.
“What the hell is wrong with you? You the one who used to be remind us all to focus?” he hold his voice try not to scream at Jung Min
“I’m sorry hyung, I think there are something wrong with me” Jung Min lower his face
“Last night everything feel so right, but this morning everything seam so wrong, after all what we did last night, why she still need time to think, to convince her self, I’m confused hyung” Jung Min hold his head with both his hands
Hyun Joong sigh “I don’t know what happen between you and her, we talk about it later, but right now I ask you to focus, so we can finish this shoot fast” Hyun Joong pat Jung Min shoulder
“Araso” Jung Min nod

At other part

Jung Min lay in his bed at Double S dorm, he read again the note that written on the card, his first card from her, the card that she made by her own, he know. When he took out the card from the yellow envelope, and saw the picture on it he smile, what a sweet, she draw a boy and a girl holding hand, and on the other hand the girl hold a yellow balloon. But when he read what written in side it, he feel confused, and hurts, in just like a second all his world up side down.
*Jung Min-ah, after what we did last night, maybe it wont feel fair for you, its not b’cos I don’t have feelings for you, but it is b’cos I have so much feelings for you.
I’ll ask you for a time for me to think, to convince my self, cos I still feel less confidence to stand next to you. I’m a noona, and just an ordinary girl, and you are an idol, you like a star above in the sky, that I just able to see from the ground, you are a dream for so many girl, and yet your fans may think that I’m not the right one for you, and my presences may just give you trouble.
Yes you convince me, but it is me who not confidence with my self, that I deserve you, there will be so many hard thing that we will face, am I strong enough to face it all?
Jung Min-ah, I want to be a girlfriend that you can count on, a girlfriend that also can be a place for you to lean on, I want to be someone that you proud of.
Jung Min-ah, mieanhae*
Jung Min take a deep sigh, then he look at Hyun Joong who stand at the door way over the card. Hyun Joong entered the room, and sit at the edge of the bed. Jung Min give the card to him. And he read it, he look at him with understanding eyes, just like older brother, and give the card back to Jung Min.
“I know how you feel, I face it too when I ask Hye Jung to date me for real, and how hard to convince her after that HK video thing, you all know that right?” Hyun Joong say
“But hyung, why she did that if she doesn’t so sure, I’m confused hyung” Jung Min sigh once again
“Did what?” Hyun Joong act blur
“Oh, c’mon hyung, you know what I meant” Jung Min pout, Hyun Joong frown still act blur, he want Jung Min say it clear.
“You evil leader, you want me say it clear right?” Jung Min glare, and Hyun Joong grin
“Why she have to think again, after we already ‘make out’?”
“What?!” it heard tree startle voice from out side Jung Min room, and then the owner of that tree voice entered the room one bye one.
“You really did that with Chae Rim noona?” Hyung Joon ask with eyes widely open
“Wow, you’re really move fast” this time Kyu Jong turn who’s talk
“How it feel?” Yeong Saeng ask with curious
“Why tree of you always sneaking out like that?” Jung Min glare
“It just happen” Kyu Jong say with grin
“So what will you do then?” Yeong Saeng ask Jung Min
“I don’t know, I’m still confused, she not pick up my call, she also not replay all my message” Jung Min pout
“Today supposed to be my happy moment, but…” Jung Min face down
“Just give her time, that what she ask right?” Hyun Joong try to comfort Jung Min
“Yup, I think it’s hard for her too” Kyu Jong also try to comfort Jung Min
“Well, actually it more easy for both of you, cos she just ordinary girl, both of you not at the same spot light, just show her that her present make you better man” Yeong Saeng say with smile
“Thank you” Jung Min smile to all his Double S brother
“Hey, we all brother right? Now tell me the detail” Hyung Joon say while sit next Jung Min
“You little funk, why should I tell you all the detail, you still a kid” Jung Min smack Hyung Joon head
”Ouch, that hurts, I’m not a kid, I’m just four month younger than you” Hyung Joon pat his head
“Yes you are, you brat” Jung Min smack Hyung Joon head again
“Stop it!” Hyung joon try to smack Jung Min head back
“Stop it you two, we better slip. Tomorrow we have to up early, we still have to shoot our MV” Hyun Joong say while leaving Jung Min room, followed by Yeong Saeng and Kyu Jong.
“You evil mal, I will get you later” Hyung Joon say while also out from Jung Min room.
Jung Min one ,ore time looking to the card, and sigh
“Don’t make me wait to long will you little noona?” he whisper, then put back the card to his bag

At other part

Double S busy promoting they new album, they schedule really in pack, mini concert, fansmeeting, guessing on TV show, radio show, travel here and there across asia to promote they new album.

Chae Rim enter her apartment, she put a news paper on the coffee table, Double S on the headline again, they single become no 1 hits in Korea, and Japan, and they ready for they second asia concert, this time they add more country to the list since they increase they popularity.
Chae Rim took out the laptop from her bag, put it on her working table, and turn it on. Then she enter her room, she throw her self to her bed, she sigh. She touch the side where he lay, she still can smell his scent there, she feel the yearning in her heart to him, a tears glimpse, she wiped it right away. Then she get up, and walk to the table next her make up table, then open the box that already bean there since yesterday.

“You like to give it to someone?”
She just smile when Rossie, her boss ask her, when she give her the box.
“You really make me proud” Rossie say with satisfaction smile
“I’m glade you like it, its my first man shoes design, I’m really nervous” Chae Rim smile
“And I have another good news, your design picked by the designer for Seoul fashion weeks, so be ready, starting next year you will have your own line, as we promise”
“Chincah?” Chae Rim eyes almost pop out cos of the excitement of the news
“Thank you, this is great news, I won’t disappoint you, I promise” Chae Rim shake Rossie hand
“You better do” Rossie give her proud smile

She call her parents right away when she get the news, she also call Shin Aera, Hwang Bo, Eric, and a few of her other friends, but she hold her self when she about to call him,
She also want to share the happy news with him, and at that time she realize, more than the other she want to share the news with him, celebrate it with him.
And that night when she celebrate it with her friends, she feel the yearning of him, she yearning for his presence, how she misses him that much, that night she cry in the toilet in the club lady’s room.

Her first man shoes design, that inspired by him, she design it accidentally, that day months ago, out of the blue, she remember him. That also the first time she feel something deferent over him in her heart, she start thinking him about him more than usual, she replay every his message, and talking with him like something that see expected every moment, and the short time that they spend together like not enough, who also a reminder for her that he is an idol. That make her draw a line, make her try hard to deny all the feelings that she had for him, she show her love for him by put the horse mark on one side of the shoes. And she really happy when Rossie provide her design for they up coming man collections. And she really thankful when Rossie also agreed to give her one of the shoes.
And there it is, she look at the dark brown lather shoes that she design, she touch the horse mark, she want him the first who have it, cos after all the shoes design as a sign of her feeling for him, but she still have no courage to face him. She sigh, how love can be this hard?.

After finish shower and change, she sit at her working table, connected the internet line to her laptop, and start open her email, and there it is, an email from him, she open it nervously
~I made this for you, I want you to know, I’m still waiting for you little noona~
She open the file that tagged with the email, it a video he sing solo at Double S mini concert, he sing “Only Me” a song that made by Hyung Joon, then the second song was “Starlight Tears” by Kim Yoo Kyung from BOF soundtrack, the video was a slide of they selfcamera picture. see the picture of him and her make her cry, she feel really hurts, she misses him deeply, she want to see him, see his warm smile, she want to feel his hand hold her, she want to smell his scent again.
And at that moment her door bell rang. She wipe her tears right away, rub her face using both her hands, then walk to the intercom to see who is coming, she frown her brow.

“Oppa?”

~cm~